This week has sucked.
Between work, raising support, and interactions with people regarding our move, everything we do feels like it’s met with resistance.
Moving into the holiday season work has been crazy for both Kelly and me. Not to mention trying to get things wrapped up for a smooth transition for both of our employers come (hopefully) January. Both of our companies are in the midst of lots of changes and trying to honor our commitment to each of them while planning this huge transition of our own has been very tricky.
Raising support has been a painfully slow process, and often times stressful and discouraging. You spend a lot of time praying that people will catch the vision for something you feel passionately called to as you explain for the seemingly millionth time what you’re doing and why you’re doing it.
Things seem to come in waves, positive and negative reactions definitely fall into that category. And for whatever reason, this past week has had lots of people playing ‘devil’s advocate,’ and pointing out all of the potential problems with a move this size, being support based, and the difficult road ahead. Even Kelly’s dentist was questioning and critical of our choice. Ha!
My desire is for this blog to be a place where you all can journey with us, see the true reality of our experience. Sometimes it will be good, sometimes it will be ugly, but always it will be honest. We are so grateful for everyone who is praying and have committed financial support towards our desire to follow God’s leading. Even people being negative have offered us opportunities to think critically, and solidify our desires.
ADDING SOME LEVITY
There were two things that popped into my head this week as we were struggling to make it to the weekend. The first was a song by Derek Webb that could be my own personal anthem: ‘I Hate Everything (But You)’
‘Cause It’s been one of those kinds of days/And I feel so out of place/And I hate everything, everything/I hate everything, but you…’
The second was a clip from a Disney Channel show from back in the day called Even Stevens, where the main character (Louis Stevens – played by Shia LaBeouf) is depressed and has dramatically locked himself in his room. A family member knocks, and this is Louis’ response:
Okay, so the whole world isn’t rotten, and I don’t hate everyone. But one of the things that Kelly and I have been learning through this process is the importance of celebrating the small things. Clinging to God’s faithfulness in the past knowing that even when our life feels out of control, God is just as faithful today as He was last week.
Thank you for being a part of this roller coaster with us,