I didn’t really think that much of turning 30. I thought I would have a much harder time with the idea of being out of my 20s, wondering if I would feel a lot older or looking back thinking that I didn’t take more advantage of being younger with less responsibilities. Really the only time that I felt old was when I had a volunteer laughing at work, and then she turned to me and said “Man, Kelly, I wish I had known you when you were my age.” How much older did this girl think I was? Obviously put me in the same category as a crazy aunt or the old lady with no filter.
As I thought more about turning 30, I realized that I wasn’t simply trying to pretend like it wasn’t that big of a deal, but that I was excited to get older. I just feel like life keeps getting better and better. I like the place that I’m in now but also looking forward to what God has next. I’m not naïve to the realities of life. I know life is going to throw newer and bigger challenges and trials. I’m going to be in way over my head either for a day, a month, a year, or even long seasons. I’m going to experience even greater heartache and loss. But all these things are just a part of life and living on this side of eternity, and through all those things, God is still good.
When I look back throughout just my 20s, I can see God’s hand on my life and what He has brought me through. He still allowed me to make my own mistakes as I tried to do things on my own, but He was with me every step of the way. Times that I would cry out and want Him to fix the situation I was in, He would do so much more by allowing me to walk through those trials and bring me out to a place I would have never even imagined for myself or leave me in a place where I could help walk alongside someone else. Doesn’t mean I can always look back at those times with great fondness and joy, but I can look back and see His faithfulness and His truths are the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
Knowing all these things helps then face the future with a bit more excitement. It’s ironic I’m even writing this today as the annoying realities of adulthood hit me with having to pay a ton on our federal taxes, electric bill, water bills, and council tax, all on top of having the anxieties and fears of having out first baby any day now, away from family, in a country that still feels very new to us at times. Lots of changes are coming our way, but God has been faithful to me in the past 30 years, I have no reason to believe He will not be faithful tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after…