As I’m sure you’ve assessed by now, we’re all over the place emotionally when it comes to this move.
Although control is only an illusion, we’ve felt the lack of control over our circumstances in the past few months. And that realization can lead to two different reactions – a grasping for some semblance of control (fear), or a humble surrender (gratitude). What I’ve realized is both are a choice. Circumstances will always change, so allowing them to dictate your feelings is maddening.
We choose gratitude.
To be honest, we have much for which to be grateful. And because of that you would think that wouldn’t be a difficult choice. But as people I think we have tendency (or maybe it’s just me) to be self focused – what we do and do not have. Turning inward I’m learning makes cultivating gratitude very difficult. Sometimes Kelly and I have to list out all of the things that we have to be grateful for – this also helps us recognize that God has and continues to provide for our needs.
Here’s a small look at some of the things that have been on our list recently:
-We are more than half way to our goal of needed funds!
-We have people who have committed to praying for us.
–Awaken Church (where I have led worship once a month over that last year) gave us a check for $3,000 (crazy!) and is partnering as a sending church as we go.
-Our community group used our last meeting of the year to lay hands and pray for us.
-My new boss agreed to a part-time (10 hours a week) independent contractor position, which will allow me to make some extra money each month.
-And as flawed, fearful, messed up vessels, we get to be a part in what God is doing in the lives of people – in a full-time ministry capacity for at least a year. How unbelievably humbling!
-Our families have been encouraging, and continue to be a resource for equipping us to follow God’s call in this new season.
Ultimately, we should never run out of things to be grateful for, because our greatest need has already been met in the person and work of Jesus Christ. Everything else is grace.
Experiencing much grace and choosing gratitude,